Dear Westport family:
The last few weeks I have sat and pondered how I could have let things get so out of control in my life. I have a lot of things I could blame: childhood trauma, help groups that didn’t “meet my needs”, a pastor who gave a quick fix without follow-up, but the truth is, I never let anyone know my heart. I couldn’t get the help I needed if I wasn’t honest! But I was afraid to be honest: afraid of losing my business and career; afraid of people judging me and pushing me away; afraid of losing my pride.
Sadly, I once told a youth group that sin is like bungee jumping – fun to jump from great heights without consequences. Now, looking back, I realize that sin ALWAYS has consequences. And, it really isn’t even fun to begin with.
I write to you a broken man. I have lost my business, my career, and much more. Yet, I now embrace Philippians 3:7-8, counting all my losses as gains. The fact that this is bringing me closer to God, and the healing process I’m longing for, is far greater than my losses.
Thank you, Westport, for being the hands and feet of Christ. Jesus met with sinners and met people at their point of need. You’ve been the same for me and my family. You did not turn on me and push me away as I feared. You pulled me close, and reached out to my family. You put our needs above your natural human desire to move away from the ugliness of my sin.
The journey before me will be hard. But knowing who I walk with, I look forward to it. I want to leave you with the verses that have meant the world to me these past weeks: Hebrews 12:4-13, 1 Peter 5:7, 1 John 1:9 and Philippians 4:4-7.
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